Saturday, February 28, 2009

Pinch me

I have been reflecting a lot lately on "this time last year" as we quickly approach some very special anniversary's. This time last year was probably the most stressful month of our entire adoption process. We were stuck in that terrible CNA registration mess and there were a few days in which we weren't sure our attorney was going to get our case registered in time, which would mean the unthinkable. It was simply terrifying and I think I held my breath the entire month. Jason and I clung to each other tightly and tried our best to distract ourselves as much as possible, but it was impossible. I suffered from terrible insomnia during the worst months of our process, but especially last February. I spent many anxious, sleepless nights on the couch knowing I had to stay strong for my sweet son, knowing that I would never give up until he was home...yet feeling like I was falling apart. Those were dark days.

What a difference one year has made. It seems like a world away, yet it also feels like just yesterday. As I watched little pea help us take wallpaper off today, I had one of those "pinch me" moments and that loud voice in my head kept chanting "MY BABY IS HOME." Thank God, my baby is home. To top it all off, Eli said his name for the first time today, "Eyi." So sweet!

And, the best of all....Eli said "uv you" for the first time when Jason put him to bed. My heart just melted.

Such a good helper!
He was also very eager to put the "papeh in the twash" after he peeled if off the wall.


Nicole said...

Yikes! When I saw on FB you went private I thought I was left out of all the Eli fun!! I finally checked my email! lol It's been one of those weeks....

I thought you were going to tell us all about your next adoption!! It's about that time for a lot of the people that came home around us.

If it's possible, Eli is even more handsome than ever in the recent pics. :)

I'm so glad to hear everything is going well for you guys. Do you guys have any plans for March or April? I'd love to get together with you guys and Tracy's family again.

Heidi said...

I know how you feel! Those couple of months waiting for CNA to get their act together just about put me into a nervous breakdown. It was awful! So glad those days are LONG GONE but I will never forget what that time felt like.

Susie said...

What a wonderful post. Crazy, isn't it, how much a year changes things. Aren't we just soooo blessed?!